15 Month Update

Living alcohol-free is about so very much more than alcohol. Yes, there's the obvious, and very real physical health and financial benefits that have come with healing...but there's also a deeper realization that I'm capable of so much more than I ever realized. And I deserve so much better than the life I was living. …

Gratefully creeping into month 7

Now into my 7th month alcohol-free. Feeling grateful and aware. I've experienced such a dramatic degree of physical healing...making it obvious that alcohol has no place in my life. I feel like I'm just beginning to step in the "deeper waters" of my healing. So far, I think the biggest "gift" of sobriety is the …

A good day…

I hosted my daughter's baby shower at my home last weekend, and it went perfectly. It's amazing how much better I am at everything without booze clouding my thinking. As the host of the event...I was fairly stressed for a bit, in my own head, about how to handle the "alcohol" thing...I had family in …

Alone with my own thoughts…

One of the hardest parts of living alcohol-free right now is just being able to sit still with my own thoughts and restlessness, and NOT self-destruct over it. The first few months of kicking the bottle to the curb are hard, in some ways...ie they require that extra push and effort that it takes to …

June 14, 2021

Coming up on 5 months alcohol-free. I've been going to meetings about once per week, listening to podcasts, and working. I already don't feel like the same person I was when I was drinking. I'm so grateful that I have another chance at this freedom. I've let go of the need to worry too much …

3 months

Today marks 3 months alcohol-free. I'm attending meetings weekly, listening to podcasts about about addiction and other stuff, and reading daily. I'm exercising--mostly walking, light weightlifting & stretching...taking supplements, drinking water and eating stuff that feeds my body & brain (well mostly, with the occasional divergence to fast food or pasta). And I try to …

Sunday thoughts…

The decision to accept in my heart and head that alcohol is not for me, and the subsequent decision to seek out resources (rather than do this alone) feels like it's changed everything for me. Nothing on the surface has changed, save for the fact that I'm feeling fantastic physically and sleeping better. Having quit …

Surrender

Alcohol is not for me. I apologize in advance for how annoying it must be to read about my inner-chatter about surrender. It's important to me to be real about it, and journal it, so I am. Part of me would rather lose a limb or an eyeball than to admit I can't control my …

Jan 26, 2020

I am sober. Again. I went almost a month alcohol-free, then in December there was a day where the drama that is happening in my family now was absolutely soul-crushing and it felt unbearable. I went and bought two bottles of wine. I told myself that would be it. But I continued to drink nightly …

November 27, 2020

Approaching two weeks alcohol free. I haven't missed it (yet anyway). I'm sleeping better every day. I am feeling well. And by comparison, I was almost always feeling sick before. I must let that sink in...not in a self-flogging manor...just in an honest way. Yesterday was Thanksgiving. I spent it with my daughter and her …