20 days

I'm really pretty happy with myself this morning. Happy to wake up clear-minded with a sense of purpose. This time around I'm pretty guarded about my sobriety...it's important and worth protecting. I've made changes to my routine that support my sobriety...I've joined a gym (gym instead of bar)...and I really like it there.  I've set some …

Why

So far, life without alcohol is better in every way.  I don't experience the cravings that I sometimes read about. I'm approaching 20 days now, and physically I'm feeling good.  I've lost 5 lbs.  I'm sleeping well.  I'm thinking clearly. I've got more time in my day. I'm more sensible. My daughter loves it.  Only …

14 days

Yesterday was the first birthday I've spent sober in a long time.  Maybe 10 years? I spent the day with my youngest daughter...ate some delicious pasta at an Italian restaurant, and enjoyed being alive.  I was, in all honesty, finding joy in being with my daughter,...listening to her ideas, sharing a meal.... the day was …

Something is different this time

Something is very, very different this time. I've tried quitting probably about...I don't know...a ton of times.  But did I really try to quit for good before?  No. Last March was the first time I really gave it an effort and put together about 60 days.  I was really seeing the benefits of not drinking...BUT, …

Sober

Being sober is at times...sobering.  Today, I thought I felt the urge to drink...but not a physical urge....just now as I was processing my "thought of drinking" I sat with my thought for a moment and realized that... I want to be around friends, and that I'm feeling a little lonely and unsure of myself. …

Monday thoughts

I'm so grateful to have found unpickled's site.  It's led me to many other sober blogs, and really opened my eyes to the fact that there truly are many different paths that I can follow to healthy sobriety.  Not in the "I'm doing all this my way" type sense, but more so in the "no …

Acceptance

I want to live. And drinking wasn't living. I have found some peace lately in accepting that I will live my life alcohol free. I wrestled with it for so long. I so badly didn't want to be defective, or different...and I didn't want to give up my wine. But it was taking over. And …

Note to self

Woke up alcohol free this morning again and I love it.  Love the way coffee tastes first thing in the morning.  Love feeling clear-minded at 6am.  I even swear that my face looks less puffy and I actually feel pretty this morning.  I don't have much time to write, so I just wanted to document …

Friday

Couldn't sleep last night.  I drank coffee in the evening, then had some sweets and I think this kept me awake. So I listened to bubble hour episodes with my headphones on until I fell asleep. Got about 7 hours sleep...not bad. Today I have that same groggy sugar-hangover...yesterday it seemed to go away with …

Today

Today I am alcohol free for a week...and it's my first day without sugar.  I was kind of wavering on the idea of giving up sugar at the same time with all the advise to just kick the drink first...but I hate the way I feel after I eat sugar and pasta...anyhow, since yesterday was …